Sometimes I lose the ability to distinguish a dream from reality. But last night I know I was only dreaming because you were beside me… and that is impossible to happen in reality.

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During those Dull Moments

I have those moments where I will just sit on the corner and start missing you terribly.

The realization that you are already gone sure does sting and the burning sensation in my chest is sometimes too much to handle. But then again, during those dull moments, I’d always take a deep breath and remind myself of one thing I have always wished for… your happiness. You are happy and who am I to hinder your happiness?

As long as I can paint a picture of you smiling and living your life to the fullest, I will be alright.

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The Short Elevator Ride

Our life together was like an elevator ride. At first, we rode the same elevator everyday and we went off the same floor. Time had passed, we still rode the same elevator but went off on different floors. Time had passed again and I discovered that there was already an elevator serving certain floor levels. For our convenience, we took separate elevators; we can still meet at the lobby, you said.

One day, i decided to take the same elevator you were in and went off on your level, i had to take the stairs back to my floor though; a little walk doesn’t really matter, at least i get to see you everyday, i said.

Time had passed again and I realized that the elevator you were taking was becoming more and more crowded that i can barely fit in, still, I held into you. I was clinging into you until you felt suffocated by my presence; take the other elevator, we stay on the same building anyway, you said.

From that day on, we never rode the same elevator, mine was always next to yours. My absence gave you more than enough room to breathe.

Eventually, we stopped seeing each other at the lobby and ultimately, we stopped seeing each other at the building. We were so close, yet so far. And the realization came to me, our paths will never cross again.

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The Night He Made My World a Little Less Lonely

He kissed my lips and I waved him goodbye

I turned my back and walked away, guess I will never know his name

The clock is ticking and I am running out of time

I’ll be leaving cause I know he is not mine.

I got to leave all the memories behind

The night is over and it is time to live again our separate lives.

The way he held me in his arms, the way he stared into my eyes

Got me losing my mind but I can’t stay by his side.

One night of company and I was a little less lonely

For a moment he let his world revolve around me

He embraced me as if I am already a part of him

And I responded as If I have always known him.

I lost this game that we have played

I entrusted myself to a guy I’ll never meet again

Just like any liquor, his spirit will also fade away

And the night we shared will also be forgotten.

Never thought i’d be this weak

I never meant to stay but why do I feel incomplete

He stole a part of me and now I’m feeling lonely

Walking back to the old me, now I’m slowly feeling the misery.

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You Will Never Be a Stranger To Me

Back when we were still together, I always wondered how’d we end up. Will we end up getting married? Will we end up being friends? Worst thing i had imagined is that we will end up on how we started, strangers; and this is what i have always feared.

I have a wish that whenever i come across your mind, you will remember all the good things we have been through and all the plans we have made for the future.

Hopefully, you will remember how we laughed and cried together, how we got each other’s backs. Hopefully you will remember how much we loved and protected each other. Hopefully you will remember that once in your life, i gave you my mind, my heart and my soul; that once in your life you let me be a part of it and that once in your life, i have loved you more than anything else in this world.

For all I know, I will always remember that once in my life, a stranger came and stole my whole existence. That stranger swept me off of my feet. That stranger gave me a million reasons to smile and to keep moving forward. That stranger became my lover and my best friend; that stranger loved me with all his mind, heart and soul. That stranger meant the whole world to me.

I will remember that stranger as damn adorable and lovable, like he has always been. I will remember that stranger. His voice, his laugh, his excitement, his humor, his loneliness, his wit, his kindness, his dreams… everything about that stranger.

I will always remember that the stranger I am talking about is you. And you will never become a stranger to me for I will always remember you.

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