Nanung Bayu Keka?

Nanung bayu kanaku? Ala. It’s the same shit everyday. Obra, bale, tudtud, gising. Makafrustrate. Ana kasi kasakit ing malilyari. Balu mung ala kang panenayan keng aldo aldo. Alang manenaya keka. Alang migaganakang magparamdam keka. Migising kang abak na balu mung ika mung dili, ala kang akasabi. Ala kang apagkwentuhan kung nanu ing malilyari keng aldo mu, kung nanu man ing panaginip mu, kung ok ka mu ba. Wa, i’m trying to be okay. Pero every night, it’s either makagising ku hanggang abak or 7pm pamu matudtud na ku. Kung nanu man ing kalungkutan ku, itudtud ku namu para ala na ku mung araramdaman. Ali na ku nga makafeel hunger. Madalas itudtud ku namu para kagising ku bayung aldo na naman though I know ala namang special na malyari.

Nothing’s worse than this. Makanini siguru ing feeling na ning magdili dili. Maski na luwal ka kayabe deng friends mu, pakiramdam mu magdili dili ka pa din. Matamle, alang bie, ali mu man buri makanita ing araramdaman mu. Ali ku mag exaggerate, tutu ini. Malungkut ka kasi itang tau na magpasaya keka ala ne. Ali ne mibalik. Makananu meng kalingwan ing tau kung balu mung kaya mu apantun ing kaligayahan? Kung balu mung ala neng aliwang kalupa, kung balu mung iya kabud? Sabyan da man na tatakut ku mu kung nanung malyari keng future, sasabyan ku ali. Ala kung balu, at alang paralan para abalu ku kaya ali ku tatakut. Pero ing balu ku mu, makatakut ing bie na ala ya.

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