Dare I Say

Who’s to say you’re this, not that?

There’s more that meets the eye

To know him is to see what heaven on earth, dare I say, must be like.

Have you ever felt freedom around somebody? I had.

He stripped the realest me without judgment.

He embraced all the good and bad and stayed.

To have him is to be free, to be with him is to understand what love is.

He is not perfect and so am I

But he is genuine and the sincerity of his voice says it all

He had me at hello

But I fell for him with his laughs and cries.

He cried for me, he cried for them

What guy will cry on behalf of other people?

A guy who has a heart for other, a guy who is a representation of what what a man should be.

And that guy is the man of my dreams, that guy was my man.

Fate is to find him but happiness is to be with him.

In this dark world, he shed some light.

He puts the stars back in the sky

He puts the sparkles back in dull eyes.

To be loved by him is to find happiness

Knowing your heart is taken care of

He will look after you like a brother

Protect you like a father

And love you platonically and romantically like you’re the most wonderful human in the world.

You see, I adore him this much

And honestly, I don’t even like being with people

But he is far different from everybody, certainly

If I learned to trust him, then there’s something special about him.

Love is a word but more that that it’s an act.

And he will show you how to love you in ways you wouldn’t imagine

He will tease you, scold you, lecture you

But will hug and kiss you and you will feel it.

You will feel how much he cares for you like nobody else would.

He will be silly sometimes, he will be angry

But he will laugh at your craziest jokes and make up with you as if nothing happened

He doesn’t resent and remember

He just moves forward and takes you with him

Always a fresh start, always a good start.

He forgives and forgets the bad things

For he does not dwell on what is hurtful

He will hope and wish for the best, for you, for him and for the both of you

He will do everything to nurture whatever is going on between you and him.

He has his ways, you have yours.

But he does not mind differences

For love is sharing, love is compromising, love is understanding.

I found love when I met him.

Yes, I lied.

You were already out of my system and you haven’t crossed my mind for a long time.

I can wake up without having you in my thoughts.

I can wake up without having you in my dreams.

Yours is not the face I want to see the first thing in the morning, and last at night.

I can stand without you.. I can live without you..

I am sorry. But everything I said wasn’t true.

I have been lying to myself about how I feel for you.

I tried to repress, i tried to suppress, I have forgotten how to express.

I thought I was stone-cold and emotionless.

But i have never been so wrong, and I can’t stand another lie

Every day it’s you… All the time, I miss you.

I heard your voice and I was awaken

Those dead butterflies came to life again.

I can feel my heart racing with the sound of your breath,

I can feel my eyes sparkling with the thought of you near.

I have been longing to say the words I couldn’t say when you got away.

I have been keeping this feeling, I have been constantly lying

What I feel about you never have changed.

It’s you every day, it has always been you since that day.

I couldn’t lie to myself, I couldn’t deny

The thought that it’s over makes me weak inside.

I never wanted to accept that I still love you.

I was too coward to admit that I still love you, truly, madly, deeply.

I wanted you to hear these confessions but I have no courage to say.

Afraid to lose you again but there’s no reason for you to stay.

I wanted to hold you, I wanted to keep you for as long as I can.

But it’s not right to have these selfish desires.

The divine being knows how much I wanted to have you, how I long for you.

But if he does not allow us to be together, what shall I do?

Even if it was just for hours, you made me alive again.

And after that, I had to let you go again.

Saying goodbye is always painful

For I will always wonder about you.

Every part of me is in pain, just the thought of you leaving makes me go insane.

I will kiss you goodbye, but I know I wouldn’t want that to be our last kiss.

I have too much to say to you and I don’t know how to begin.

I am afraid that if I start, I will not be able to find an end to it.

I wish I had told you when i had the chance

Even if we’re not on the same page 

Even if we do not feel the same

Listen to my words for these are the words I have kept deep inside me 

I love you still… I always will.

The Idea of Not Having You Around

I wonder how it feels like to wake up without your presence

And honestly, I don’t even want to know the answer.

Let’s just put it this way,

Waking up without you is like waking up on the wrong side of the bed, always a bad start.

It’s like a phone without a signal, no reception, no fun.

Or a phone without a battery, useless.

It’s painting without colors, dull and boring.

It’s trying to complete a jigsaw puzzle when a piece is missing,

Will always be incomplete.

It’s like writing a poem for nobody,

Just words without meaning.

I’m trying to find the best comparison but I am failing

For my mind keeps rejecting the idea of not having you around.

Just the thought of your absence makes me miss you  

Living without you is hell of lonely

Will you do me the favor of staying right by me?