You were already out of my system and you haven’t crossed my mind for a long time.
I can wake up without having you in my thoughts.
I can wake up without having you in my dreams.
Yours is not the face I want to see the first thing in the morning, and last at night.
I can stand without you.. I can live without you..
I am sorry. But everything I said wasn’t true.
I have been lying to myself about how I feel for you.
I tried to repress, i tried to suppress, I have forgotten how to express.
I thought I was stone-cold and emotionless.
But i have never been so wrong, and I can’t stand another lie
Every day it’s you… All the time, I miss you.
I heard your voice and I was awaken
Those dead butterflies came to life again.
I can feel my heart racing with the sound of your breath,
I can feel my eyes sparkling with the thought of you near.
I have been longing to say the words I couldn’t say when you got away.
I have been keeping this feeling, I have been constantly lying
What I feel about you never have changed.
It’s you every day, it has always been you since that day.
I couldn’t lie to myself, I couldn’t deny
The thought that it’s over makes me weak inside.
I never wanted to accept that I still love you.
I was too coward to admit that I still love you, truly, madly, deeply.
I wanted you to hear these confessions but I have no courage to say.
Afraid to lose you again but there’s no reason for you to stay.
I wanted to hold you, I wanted to keep you for as long as I can.
But it’s not right to have these selfish desires.
The divine being knows how much I wanted to have you, how I long for you.
But if he does not allow us to be together, what shall I do?
Even if it was just for hours, you made me alive again.
And after that, I had to let you go again.
Saying goodbye is always painful
For I will always wonder about you.
Every part of me is in pain, just the thought of you leaving makes me go insane.
I will kiss you goodbye, but I know I wouldn’t want that to be our last kiss.
I have too much to say to you and I don’t know how to begin.
I am afraid that if I start, I will not be able to find an end to it.
I wish I had told you when i had the chance
Even if we’re not on the same page
Even if we do not feel the same
Listen to my words for these are the words I have kept deep inside me
I love you still… I always will.