I Will Apologize But I Will Never Regret

I will apologize but I will never regret

I will say sorry but I will never undo

The words I said to you, those things are all true

Our paths have crossed again but there are dreams that will never be met.

I will apologize for taking a little of your time, of your attention

I still talk to you because I have to, I want to, I need to, I have my own reason

My actions might be distasteful to you, I apologize

But I want to be the one to hear your cries.

I am sorry, my dearest, because I cannot seem to let you go

You, leaving, is letting me down, and I’m feeling really low

Why must it be this difficult for us to have our way?

Why are you so distant, why won’t you just stay?

I will apologize for making it hard for you to have your peace

I cannot bear to live a day without you, it’s you I truly miss

My world is so different now that you’re going away

Take a step back, hold my hand, every day I pray

I will leave my door on the latch if ever you return

To unlove you, never will i learn

I will take you back in a heartbeat, I swear to the stars in the sky

I will cross oceans for you, I won’t stop loving you even after I die.

 

 

 

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It only took 3 messages from you to completely break me apart. That goodbye, I don’t want to get that from you.

When I received your text, I was so happy because I missed you so much. When I read it, I saw the unavoidable, nagpapaalam ka na naman.

Why? Why do you always cross my name on your plans? Baggage na lang ba ako sa iyo? I thought I was supporting you all along… I gave you the most I can, given the situation, given the distance. I gave you all the love I have, all the time I have. I gave you a part of me (and yes, I know hindi mo yun hiniling). Hindi ba enough yun para magstay ka?

When I read your text, I felt like I lost my soul. I immediately went to my room because I was dying inside. I cried in silence. Ayaw tumigil ng luha ko. Ang hirap magpigil ng iyak kasi yung sakit na nararamdaman ko, laging bago.

You said goodbye multiple times before but I never got used to it. Kahit kanina, yung ata ang pinakasakit sa lahat. I thought we were good. I thought you’ll never leave. I thought kahit papano may balak ka na ikeep ako. Pero I thought wrong, at the end of the day, you still want to continue without me. Are you better off without me kaya ganito? Have you always known that iiwan mo din ako? Why? Am I not worthy of you?

It’s killing me now.

 

Eevee :)

I always wonder how you are feeling and what you are doing… You know, I care about you a lot. I always think about you! Talk to me, whenever you are ready 🙂

 

-Mallow